How does female sexuality feel like?

I think men and woman have a lot of things in common sexually but we use our body quite differently. Penis is clitoris, prostate is g-spot and these all can be used for achieving orgasms with enough stimulation. Men almost always get concentrated stimulation in their penis so they can get to a pleasing and relieving orgasm relatively fast. 

If stroking a cock is like rubbing a clit, and men and women both have a sensitive spot somewhere inside, there has to be a way for men to be pleased with being penetrated like women are. OK, men have no vagina and gays already know the trick for quite a long time, but what I saw or heard from them and from others like shemales or experimenting straight guys, they usually stroke their cock for orgasms and that's not the same. Sexually charged women can cum just from being penetrated vaginally and many of them anally as well.

For men - from childhood masturbation to adult sex - the mechanism remains almost the same, so "the wires are connected firmly".

An important part of my experiment is to try to reconnect those wires.

The beginning of the story

My feminine side and foot fetishism

I am 30+ years old male, who has a slightly oversexed female side as well. Even from my early childhood I'm passionately in love with female body and sexy feminine style, so I must have been a lesbian woman in my previous life :-) I'm neither gay nor bisexual since I'm not attracted to men in any way, so that is something else for sure. Whenever I had a girlfriend I never felt the need to express my femme side, I always lived very healthy relationships. So it seems I just always need femininity around me in one way or another.

Throughout the years I started to discover that since I have a pretty fortunate slim body, there's a way to please myself anytime with an almost perfect feminine look. I started to crossdress occassionally. I'm especially attracted to nice legs and feet, so that's what I've mainly focused on in my crossdressing sessions.

Crossdressing vs masturbation

When I had no girlfriend but needed the closeness of femininity, I often masturbated while being crossdressed. But right after having an orgasm I suddenly felt the urge to crossdress to fade completely. For 1-2 days my feminine side seemed to be gone, but then it started over again. Those mood swings made me a bit confused and I felt myself somewhat unbalanced. I tried to give up crossdressing completely but then I missed the feminine sexuality that very few girls have or capable to offer. So instead of giving up crossdressing I decided to give up masturbation or at least to reduce it significantly. 

The sex change experiment

A few months ago I've started an exciting experiment. When I am at home I live my life totally as my feminine side wishes, I give my body to that kinky slut I've always lived with in my mind. I want to see what feelings and acts come up during this period.

Luckily I'm working at home so I can dress super sexy even in working hours. I shave my whole body almost daily, so I have nice smooth skin everywhere. I paint my toenails deep red and keep them that way 24/7 in order to secretly remind myself who I am at home. I wear toerings and very thin (8 den) pantyhose or stockings. Over the years I'm trained to wear and walk in sexy sandals with 6 inch high heels, so I can wear those throughout the day every day and it keeps me aroused instead of feeling tired. I wear minidress and g-string but I do not apply makeup or wear wigs (except for taking some photos) as I never show up in public. I don't want to trick people, I just want to please myself with feminine look and feelings at home.

I call my female side Christine. I give her everything that she needs to express and please herself except for my penis, because a male orgasm would ruin the whole thing. She will not get another real man's penis either. She needs to find another way to please herself sexually...

I will keep you posted from time to time about what I do and feel regarding to this experiment. I hope some curious audience will make my efforts last as long as possible.