Monday, January 12, 2009

Preparing a nice girly body for anal play

I've got some questions regarding to shaving parts of the body and preparing the backdoor for safe and pleasurable penetration. Girls are used to the shaving process and they're very good at it but even they might be in need of a fast and easy way to clean that lovely tight hole of many pleasures. 

Well, I am quite fortunate being not too hairy so regular shaving (that means every other day on average) takes no more than 5-10 minutes for the whole body under the running shower. I tried foams and creams earlier, but the easiest and most practical way turned out to be the razor and the pure running water. Hairy first timers - of course - should trim the hair first and might prefer to use foam to practice the shaving safely. To avoid cuts, you need to buy quality women's razors with moisturising pads. In the past using cheap crappy ones I've always cut myself, but recently with the quality razors not even once. Do not shave your sensitive parts (lower ab, around genitals and underarms) against the direction of growth. It causes ingrown hair and ugly spots sure enough. It's good to use some body lotion afterwards to have silky touch and it also makes you nicely scented.

I'm told to look good shaved even as a man. Don't be afraid of what others might think when noticing your shaven body. If they ask, just tell them you feel better without hair or that you want to swim faster :)

I'm not a fan of fake body parts and augmentations (like breast forms and such), probably because I do not go out in public and because I like to wear tiny dresses and to touch my body in it's most natural state. 

The perfect makeup is an art in itself, but you can find very good advices and movie clips on YouTube. 

Anal cleaning tips

For some, anal cleaning is an erotic act and is a part of their kinky games so they're using enemas and stuff. Well, I'm not into that kinda things, so I can't tell you much about that. For me it's just a necessary thing for playing safe so I want it to be fast and effective. I don't need to clean the whole system, just the final section called the rectum that is no more than 6-8 inches (15-20 cm) long.

I remove the head of the shower and using the tube only I let some mildly warm water run into my rectum. Not too much, just what loosens up what might be left in there. Then I go to the toilet and let it all go out. Repeat it a few times, until there's nothing but clean water comes out. Sometimes I even have to push the tube into the rectum a few inches for the complete cleaniness, but then I am very careful not to scrape the delicate tissues. The whole process doesn't take longer than a few minutes, then all I need is some water based lube and I'm ready to play. 

Thursday, January 8, 2009

In honour of femininity and the greatness of anal orgasm: A year without my dick

I am taking a big step this year as I decided to GO FOR A WHOLE YEAR without any pleasure given to me by my cock. My last orgasm was on the 30th of December. And there will be no more for 2009, at least not using my penis. I am very excited. Last year, I've been doing several weeks chaste as a man several times, but this is going to be long... 

Things are pretty hectic in my life nowdays and I'm facing big changes anyways, so why not make life even more challenging? If I'll be doing fine, I might even opt for a sex change without the fear of losing my dick permanently! :))

Among other things, I'll try to change some of my conditions so I could live and dress and have sex like a woman at least in private. Having sex - of course - means faking it with dildos. Soon noone will belive me, but I'm still attracted to girls and have no desire to fuck with real men... Ohh, but one year without my cock... Who knows? I may become a sissy completely! Knowing about my high sex drive and my wild fantasies suddenly I might find myself on a table legs up in the air fucked by five men with hot cum all over my body. Since I've already tried and enjoyed double anal penetration with dildos I could easily handle the situation: Two guys ramming my ass, one my throat, while I'm preparing the last two with my hands... ONE FULL YEAR WITHOUT MY COCK... Ohh, what am I doing?!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Experiences in having pleased anally only

Thank you all for continuously asking about the status of my experiments. I've been quiet for a while, but things were going pretty well. I've got very nice comments, some of them are interesting stories about one's efforts or achievements. Please read them and continue to share your stories or opinions with all of us. (Since names aren't really telling, please let us know if you're male, female, CD/TV/TS... whatever, it helps us to better understand you.)

Well, I'm still not able to crossdress regularly and express my feminine half the way I'd love to, but my training for a different sexual enjoyment went on unobstructed. I've managed to refrain from masturbation and had anal only stimulation for 4-6 week periods several times in the second half of last year. It was a great experience, so I'm going to share some details with those who're interested.

The first week is always quite challenging especially as I watch porn regularly during those periods. As I discovered, if I do not have time for some kinky anal play, the best thing to do when I have an almost unbearable erection is to play with my nipples while sitting and clenching my PC muscles for 2-3 seconds several times for like 3-5 minutes while taking deep breaths. I clench the muscles really hard and I move my whole lower abdomen in and out making forward-backward motions like what you see when a girl rides on a cock passionately. This stimulates the inner parts and makes my whole body shiver and if I am really aroused it usually makes some pre-cum leak out. Then when I stop, I feel great and somewhat relieved. Well at least I can finally move my attention to things other than sex :P

I've tried edging as well (you know, stopping masturbation just before orgasm and ejaculation) but while I find it extremely pleasurable, after several days of tease and denial it's difficult to avoid falling over the edge, and then I ruin the whole thing. On the other hand, my personal goal is to totally refrain from penile stimulation, so my anus and my prostate becomes my primary source of sexual pleasure. 

So the first week is the hard part then it becomes much easier. From the experiences of last year I can declare that I enjoy anal stimulation much better than masturbating with my penis. After experiencing a series of mini-orgasms and involuntary muscle contractions caused by anal stimulation (that I described in an earlier post), I no longer need to reach for my penis for sexual pleasure. It feels wonderful throughout the session and afterwards. The best thing is that I can do it as long as I want. When I stop I feel somewhat relieved but always ready for more. The hard thing for beginners might be to decide when to stop. Well, I like to do it for 30-60 minutes, then if I'm in the mood I like to go for another 15-20 minutes. From my experiences it's better to go for shorter sessions several times (with some breaks in between), because that way I feel the stimulation stronger and on the other hand I find the first few minutes of initial penetration the most arousing.

In regard to the size of the penis/dildo, I've got an almost regular male size (just a bit larger) but definately smaller than what you can see in my earlier posts. However I find the bigger ones are fantastic for short teasing, they make you sore when you ride it for too long. The regular size can have the same effect if used at the right speed and angle. Regarding to speed, too fast doesn't make it better. Constant speed and deep breaths are the key for me.

For those who are willing to try for themselves what I'm talking about, please do not expect too much too soon. The feeling is totally different than regular male orgasms and it takes a lot of time and practice. I think the key is not to expect any particular feeling especially not an orgasm, just to enjoy what feels good and consider it the best you can have at the moment. First, you have to enjoy being aroused for long even without having an orgasm. I am even thankful not to have an orgasm, since it keeps me horny and ready for more pleasure anytime. 

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Sharing the secret with the world

Until a few months ago, I felt I have a lifelong secret that's connected to my personality and should be kept hidden inside me since it's not considered "normal". Therefore it could harm my image in general and my chances for more serious friendships and relationships. 

Well, I still feel I should not come out completely with my dual personality (I mean in my real life), but sharing my thoughts and feelings seem to help me and others to understand what's going on with ourselves and what can be achieved. On the net I've learned a lot about crossdressers, transsexuals and gender issues in general but also about kinky stuff like chastity and orgasm denial games for both males and females. I've discovered there are so many interesting and fun things that are far from being "normal" that I no longer feel I should feel ashamed about anything that crosses my mind.

Creating this blog and sharing my videos on YouTube and other places gained me an amazing amount of attention and honest talk. My videos have been viewed more than 125 000 times and hundreds of messages and comments make me certain that people are curious and pleased to read and see honest experiences. I even got nice comments from girls and that makes me very happy as I feel we are not limited to the understanding and friendliness of our own gender only. It's important since I'm into heterosexual partnerships and I'm still waiting for my ideal girl to appear in my sight. Despite my kinky experiments and unusual behavior I am pretty confident among women. I just figured there's more fun in life that just acting like one gender or another. 

New videos - but not for everyone

Anyway, if you read my blog you already know that in my feminization experience I've gone farther than just crossressing. I was thinking a lot about showing more but at first I didn't want to be too graphic. On the other hand I've got many requests even from straight but curious guys to show more. Since my female side is so kinky and shameless that she feels bad not to show what makes her - and possibly some others - so aroused, I decided to share some uncensored videos with all of you who are interested. They might be tacky or just too graphic, I hope it will not disappoint you.

YouTube is not the appropriate place for such movies so I've uploaded them to other places. You can find the links on the right at the weblinks section.

I had to have a break... my kinky experience since a good friend of mine had to moved in to my apartment. I don't know how long she'll stay but I'm not able to live continuously as Christine for some time for sure.

I wanted to be friendly and calm so a week after my last post I suspended the experiment and masturbated two or three times a week. As usual my urge to crossdress faded away and I was back to normal. 

I didn't feel upset since my friend is more important. On the other hand I happened to discover that while being a full time man with regular masturbation is so much easier but also much less pleasing and sexually satisfying than being chaste as a man and enjoying my femininity and the mini orgasms from anal stimulation. At least this is how I feel without having a sexy girlfriend who would radiate more femininity then me.

Back in the game again

While I'm still just occassionally able to dress like Christine wants, for over a week now I'm in male chastity again and playing body and anal games only. It's amazing! Whenever I see a porn scene or even just a beautiful naked girl, my body shivers and I get the same feeling in my stomach that you feel when you're in love. Of course my ability to focus on the everyday tasks has weakened at some degree as I'm experiencing an almost constant state of arousal. 

I'm going for six whole weeks in this state as I've heard that this is the ideal timeframe for experiencing the maximum effects of male chastity and the increasing arousal. After that time - they say - the body adjusts to the reduced sexual strain and you start to loose interest in sexual fantasies. And that's really not what I want! :)

As you can see I've got a lot of nice and interesting comments and tons of messages on YouTube, so next time I'm going to write about my thoughts regarding to my friendly audience. 

Friday, June 27, 2008

Whoa... I squirt like a bitch!

I was right and it all goes better than I thought. One week passed and I managed to leave my dick untouched without even the slightest feeling of frustration. OK, I played with myself in other ways on every day this week. But as my general arousal increases I feel so much pleasure caressing my nipples and my whole body that whenever I start penetrating myself with a massive dildo sticked to the floor I feel like being in heaven for 20-30 minutes. This could be a similar thing that girls feel while being fucked at the right angle and speed. 

I was right, the key to all this is to completely avoid any penis stimulation and not just for the session but entirely during the experimental period. I've never felt this good before, except for the time I had sex with girls I was very deeply in love with. Simple sex act of any other kind doesn't feel this good. So this must be an emotional, hormonal or whatever thing. 

The juice of the week

In this almost constant aroused state, after about 10 minutes of constant ramming I experience a very strong contraction in my lower abdomen and I squirt like those chicks in the movies where they have their g-spot stimulated through their pussies or asses. The fluid that comes out is mostly pee with some prostate fluid in it. However, it's not a real orgasm, it's a very strong and wonderful thing but without the final relieving feeling that a regular orgasm causes. But that is what makes it special. I can continue to have more of this as long as I almost pass out and I need to rest.

I've got one more thing that heightens my arousal very much. Whenever I enjoy riding the dildo I usually watch porn movie scenes where extremely pretty girls are rammed in their ass for a long time without touching their clits or pussies. It's not the guy or his dick what I enjoy seeing in these scenes, but the facial expressions of these female beauties and the noises and groanings they make. I try to imagine what they might feel and I try to feel the same. 

This whole thing really works. I think I'm getting closer to what I want to achieve. I want to practice more, even this is already much more than what I expected...

Friday, June 20, 2008

No more regular orgasms

In order to taste female sexuality, I knew I have to cut back on orgasms of the male type. For the last two months I only had one orgasm per week. I almost immediately felt the difference. I am much more sensitive for light touches and feel aroused by more things than before. (As an interesting side effect, I also seem more attractive for women in public. I get more eye contact and attention. Too bad, I have to experiment with all these alone...)

However, to take my experiment to the next level I decided to go for a month or even longer without regular masturbation. The only way to please myself sexually is fondling and anal masturbation with a dildo. I'm not going to touch my genital area for that period. I expect that as there will be no genital stimulation at all, my whole body and the anal area will be more and more sexually sensitive and it will give me more pleasure as time goes by. I discovered that when I am aroused enough, my nipples are quite sensitive for touching and twisting so that could add to my general arousal as well.

I'm looking forward for the upcoming weeks along with my ever increasing horniness...