Thank you all for continuously asking about the status of my experiments. I've been quiet for a while, but things were going pretty well. I've got very nice comments, some of them are interesting stories about one's efforts or achievements. Please read them and continue to share your stories or opinions with all of us. (Since names aren't really telling, please let us know if you're male, female, CD/TV/TS... whatever, it helps us to better understand you.)
Well, I'm still not able to crossdress regularly and express my feminine half the way I'd love to, but my training for a different sexual enjoyment went on unobstructed. I've managed to refrain from masturbation and had anal only stimulation for 4-6 week periods several times in the second half of last year. It was a great experience, so I'm going to share some details with those who're interested.
The first week is always quite challenging especially as I watch porn regularly during those periods. As I discovered, if I do not have time for some kinky anal play, the best thing to do when I have an almost unbearable erection is to play with my nipples while sitting and clenching my PC muscles for 2-3 seconds several times for like 3-5 minutes while taking deep breaths. I clench the muscles really hard and I move my whole lower abdomen in and out making forward-backward motions like what you see when a girl rides on a cock passionately. This stimulates the inner parts and makes my whole body shiver and if I am really aroused it usually makes some pre-cum leak out. Then when I stop, I feel great and somewhat relieved. Well at least I can finally move my attention to things other than sex :P
I've tried edging as well (you know, stopping masturbation just before orgasm and ejaculation) but while I find it extremely pleasurable, after several days of tease and denial it's difficult to avoid falling over the edge, and then I ruin the whole thing. On the other hand, my personal goal is to totally refrain from penile stimulation, so my anus and my prostate becomes my primary source of sexual pleasure.
So the first week is the hard part then it becomes much easier. From the experiences of last year I can declare that I enjoy anal stimulation much better than masturbating with my penis. After experiencing a series of mini-orgasms and involuntary muscle contractions caused by anal stimulation (that I described in an earlier post), I no longer need to reach for my penis for sexual pleasure. It feels wonderful throughout the session and afterwards. The best thing is that I can do it as long as I want. When I stop I feel somewhat relieved but always ready for more. The hard thing for beginners might be to decide when to stop. Well, I like to do it for 30-60 minutes, then if I'm in the mood I like to go for another 15-20 minutes. From my experiences it's better to go for shorter sessions several times (with some breaks in between), because that way I feel the stimulation stronger and on the other hand I find the first few minutes of initial penetration the most arousing.
In regard to the size of the penis/dildo, I've got an almost regular male size (just a bit larger) but definately smaller than what you can see in my earlier posts. However I find the bigger ones are fantastic for short teasing, they make you sore when you ride it for too long. The regular size can have the same effect if used at the right speed and angle. Regarding to speed, too fast doesn't make it better. Constant speed and deep breaths are the key for me.
For those who are willing to try for themselves what I'm talking about, please do not expect too much too soon. The feeling is totally different than regular male orgasms and it takes a lot of time and practice. I think the key is not to expect any particular feeling especially not an orgasm, just to enjoy what feels good and consider it the best you can have at the moment. First, you have to enjoy being aroused for long even without having an orgasm. I am even thankful not to have an orgasm, since it keeps me horny and ready for more pleasure anytime.