Until a few months ago, I felt I have a lifelong secret that's connected to my personality and should be kept hidden inside me since it's not considered "normal". Therefore it could harm my image in general and my chances for more serious friendships and relationships.
Well, I still feel I should not come out completely with my dual personality (I mean in my real life), but sharing my thoughts and feelings seem to help me and others to understand what's going on with ourselves and what can be achieved. On the net I've learned a lot about crossdressers, transsexuals and gender issues in general but also about kinky stuff like chastity and orgasm denial games for both males and females. I've discovered there are so many interesting and fun things that are far from being "normal" that I no longer feel I should feel ashamed about anything that crosses my mind.
Creating this blog and sharing my videos on YouTube and other places gained me an amazing amount of attention and honest talk. My videos have been viewed more than 125 000 times and hundreds of messages and comments make me certain that people are curious and pleased to read and see honest experiences. I even got nice comments from girls and that makes me very happy as I feel we are not limited to the understanding and friendliness of our own gender only. It's important since I'm into heterosexual partnerships and I'm still waiting for my ideal girl to appear in my sight. Despite my kinky experiments and unusual behavior I am pretty confident among women. I just figured there's more fun in life that just acting like one gender or another.
New videos - but not for everyone
Anyway, if you read my blog you already know that in my feminization experience I've gone farther than just crossressing. I was thinking a lot about showing more but at first I didn't want to be too graphic. On the other hand I've got many requests even from straight but curious guys to show more. Since my female side is so kinky and shameless that she feels bad not to show what makes her - and possibly some others - so aroused, I decided to share some uncensored videos with all of you who are interested. They might be tacky or just too graphic, I hope it will not disappoint you.
YouTube is not the appropriate place for such movies so I've uploaded them to other places. You can find the links on the right at the weblinks section.